My husband Steve visited me last night, in my dreams.
He was laying in a bed, and I touched his arm and asked him for a kiss. I told him I knew this wasn’t real so I wanted a kiss. He laid there and smiled at me.
It was a nice visit. 
I have amazing friends. I spent the day with some of them and we had a great time. We went to dinner and we celebrated Steve. We know he was there with us because a song he loved, that we were talking about earlier today, came on while at dinner. Then we saw a boat similar to the one his parents owned while he was growing up. We all agree that was him telling us he was there. Thank you for all the birthday wishes for him, all the texts and love you all sent us today. It really helps and I appreciate it so much!!!
One of my best friends had these bears made for the girls from two of Steve’s Hawaiian shirts. They are amazing and the girls absolutely love them!!! The shirts he wore tons of times so they remind them of him. Such a wonderful and thoughtful gift! Thank you Jaime Lutynski Kilday!!! You are an amazing person and I’m happy to call you my friend. Xoxoxoxo
3 years ago today, Steve and I went out to celebrate our 13th wedding anniversary. It was a Saturday night. When we got home that night Steve asked me if I was happy (after 13 yrs of marriage, I think it’s a legit question! lol) and I told him, “Yes” I was happy with where we were in our relationship, I loved our new home and all that came along with it and the direction our lives were going in at that time. I then told him that I was scared that something was going to happen to ruin it all. He assured me that nothing would happen to take our happiness away. 3 days later he ended up in the hospital and they found…
Well, friends, 2017 was an interesting year for my entire family…. So much happened….. cancer diagnosis for my brother (he’s doing great!)… a flood down 3 stories in my house (but I now have a GORGEOUS new bathroom)… I broke my hand (my right hand and yes I’m right handed)… the trees on the side of my house fell and hit the house (no major damage…except for my broken hand)…pneumonia for my father in law 2+ times (he’s doing well right now)…. painful kidney stones for my mother in law (she finally has some relief after a year of pain)….the lose of another neighborhood dad 🙁 ….NEW FRIENDS…. a road trip to Florida with some of my Greenwood Peeps…. a road trip to PA with…
Today would have been mine and Steve’s 16th wedding anniversary. We had such a fun wedding and I remember it as if it were yesterday. I always thought we’d grow old together. I miss him so much.
Today is 7 month’s since Steve died. 7 MONTHS! I can’t believe it’s been that long, yet it seems like yesterday. Holly cried tonight. She misses him SO MUCH. He was her ‘person’. She had a bond with him that will always make her heart hurt. Holly cries a lot. She thinks of him a lot. She never misses the 5th of the month. She’s “graduating 6th grade” in 2 weeks. She wanted him to be with there to see her graduation SO BAD. She knew it probably wouldn’t happen, and she knew he was dying, but all she prayed for was for him to see her finish elementary school. She knew he’d never see her graduate. But he didn’t make it. At least not…