The Mourner’s Bill of Rights

by Karen on May 27, 2017

in Life After Steve

I came across something called “The Mourner’s Bill of Rights” and there were 10 bullet points. One of them made me feel so better about how I’ve been feeling the past week or so – I have been SO UNMOTIVED lately. I haven’t cooked in two weeks, and have no desire to even go food shopping. I have new furniture coming for Allison this week which means everything has to come out of her room and I have the Book Fair at the girl’s school coming up in less than a week and I haven’t done anything for that either. I hate feeling this way. But at least this helps me to understand that it’s normal.

It said “You have the right to be tolerant of your physical and emotional limits” – Your feelings of loss and sadness will probably leave you feeling fatigued. Respect what your body and mind are telling you. Get daily rest. Eat balanced meals. And don’t allow others to push you into doing things you don’t feel ready to do.

Urggh… I hate grief and how it takes over me without any control.

Daddy Bears

by Karen on May 24, 2017

in Life After Steve

One of my best friends had these bears made for the girls from two of Steve’s Hawaiian shirts.

They are amazing and the girls absolutely love them!!! The shirts he wore tons of times so they remind them of him.

Such a wonderful and thoughtful gift! Thank you Jaime Lutynski Kilday!!! You are an amazing person and I’m happy to call you my friend. Xoxoxoxo

A Visit In My Dreams…..

by Karen on May 20, 2017

in Life After Steve

My husband Steve visited me last night, in my dreams.

He was laying in a bed, and I touched his arm and asked him for a kiss. I told him I knew this wasn’t real so I wanted a kiss. He laid there and smiled at me.

It was a nice visit.

Today would have been mine and Steve’s 16th wedding anniversary.

We had such a fun wedding and I remember it as if it were yesterday.

I always thought we’d grow old together.

I miss him so much.

My girls spoiled me today!! My day began with them letting me sleep in, then waking me to kisses and breakfast in bed – heart shaped toast, a hardboiled egg and a granola bar. Then they showered me with lots of presents.

They really made me feel special today  It’s been tough being their mom the past 6 months, but I try my best and there is nothing I wouldn’t do for them . They are my world right now .

The day was complete with a great dinner with my mom and dad. I love my mom beyond words and I’m so lucky to have her. Two friends lost their mom’s this weekend, and I couldn’t even begin to imagine how they feel today, so I’ll pray for them and count my blessings.

Happy Mother’s day to all of you that join me with the amazing title of mom. I hope you all had a great day.