This morning I did the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. I said good bye to my husband Steve. He peacefully passed away at 6:20 am and is no longer suffering. His soul is free from cancer, so he won!
Thank you all so much for your prayers, friendship and love over these past 2+ years.
Today is Steve’s 17th chemo treatment. It’s been a while since I’ve updated and I’m sorry about that. Steve’s been bugging me to post an update but I’ve been busy shoveling snow, ice, snow again, then more snow and then even more snow, then I got up this morning and shovel MORE snow!!! You get the picture. I want to apologize because this snow is all my fault. I think that mother nature is trying to see how far she can push me before I go over the edge. I’m sorry to take you all on the ride with me. Hopefully she’s satisfied and will stop. So how is Steve doing? Steve started a new chemo to replace the Oxaliplatin. For those of you that…
Today Steve and I went to Dana Faber to meet with a research doctor in Gastrointestinal Cancers to talk about possible clinical trials. We did our research and talked with Steve’s Oncologist in Warwick beforehand and we were pretty sure there wasn’t anything that Steve qualified for so we weren’t expecting much. But figured a ride there wouldn’t hurt. And it didn’t hurt, nor did it help. We were correct. There is nothing right now for Steve’s specific cancer and mutation of his cancer. However, the doctor did offer to test Steve’s original biopsy sample to see if it has a specific mutation that it wasn’t tested for back in June 2014. While the doctor doesn’t think Steve’s cancer has this mutation according to other…
Last week was great. Steve went to work, no doctor’s appointments, the girls fought like normal, I felt anxious about the girls fighting and Max pooped in the house. It was a normal week and it felt good. I think we needed that break from “cancer”. Just to realize that we are all still here and need to move along as normal as we can. It was nice. It recharged us for another week of Chemo. Dr. Sam told us that we “can’t change what is happening to Steve. We can only live each day as best as we can so we have no regrets.” And he is right. And while it’s hard to think that way every second of every day, we try…
My families world was turned upside down in June 2014. I’ve decided to share it here on our family blog to possibly help someone going through the same thing. I’ve searched high and low for months for support groups and finally found one online. I have so many questions and concerns that really only someone who’s gone through this, can help with. Here is our story: On Friday May 30, 2014 my husband Steve came home complaining of chest pains. He was thinking he had gas and then ate dinner. After dinner it didn’t get any better so he stayed home while I took Holly to her softball game. I made him promise me that if it got worse, he’d take an aspirin. He assured…
Friends of mine set up a photo session for our family. It was gifted to me in September but with Steve having surgery in October, we never got around to doing it. Now that he’s in his last days, we knew we had to make it happen. The photographer was kind enough to come to our house and work with us in taking some pictures. I dressed us all in blue for colon cancer. And I love the results. We will treasure these photos forever!
We met with the surgeon on June 20 2014 that was going to put in the Port-A-Cath on the following Monday. He explained to us that it will sit in the front of his shoulder, just under the skin. It can stay there for as long as we need it and then removed when we are done. He will receive his chemo through the port and have all his blood work drawn from it. This way they don’t have to poke him each time. Of course there are things that can complicate this but those things are rare and probably won’t happen. We are pretty confident that getting the Port is the best way to do it. The surgery was outpatient and pretty simple and…